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“And that’s baby kicking”

Posted on October 12th, 2011. Written by Popstarh8er.

Thursday, May 26th, 2011 – 10:21am

I’m hungry. I might need to go make some popcorn in a minute.

So I am … 13 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Dh and I went to my OB on Monday for my second appointment where we got to hear the heartbeat for the first time.

Wow, I actually had to go eat something for a couple of minutes and then come back. Haha.

So we hear the little thump, thump, thump and the midwife says “there it is.” and dh says, “That’s the baby’s heartbeat?”
“Yup” she replied.
“I thought it sounded kind of fast.”
“Yup. There’s a baby in there.” she said.
“So I wasn’t making it up!” I replied with a smile.
“It kind of feels that way in the beginning doesn’t it?”

And it really does. Even to hear the heartbeat, I still have a hard time believing it. Alisha (my good friend) told me on Sunday, “It looks like you are losing weight! I thought you were suppose to be gaining weight? You look good though.” I told her that she was probably right but it is still difficult for me to eat correctly with the nausea and food aversions. I frequently find myself not being able to finish a drink or a plate of food because I start to get sick. I had actually lost 2 pounds since my first appointment.

I still find myself at somewhat of a loss about how much this baby will change our lives, my life especially. Before it seemed like such an easy decision: choose to have a baby.

Now the reality of how much changes has started to sink in. Of course we are excited. Dh seems to be more and more excited each day. He thanks God in prayer for the blessing of the baby and asks that he helps us bring up the baby to love and serve him.

But it really impresses on me that my life is going to do a 180! Not in a bad or good way, just completely different. My whole daily responsibility will be looking after and caring for the baby and the house. I am looking forward to it but I am going to have to re-learn everything. A trip to the grocery store that could take me an hour now will be an all day process. Dh and I just kept remarking on how different it will be with a baby. How much more time it will take. How much we will be toting around.

I really am looking forward to it though. I look forward to being able to share my love with a new member of our family. I look forward to being able to study the little eyes and cheeks and hands for traits of me and dh. Will the baby have my family’s fingers or dh’s 3 dimples? I look forward to seeing the love in my husbands face as he holds our child. I look forward to learning how to deal with new and difficult situations with my amazing husband.

I really look forward to the quiet moments where I can hold my baby, just me and them.

All the fears and anxieties cannot outweigh what I feel from that dream.

Oh! I forgot to tell that while we were listening to the baby’s heartbeat on doppler we heard a loud “whoosh” sound. “And that’s baby kicking.” the midwife said. “Really? Wow!” Dh replied. I was surprised too but of course, couldn’t feel it yet.

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